Big Sean has opened up about contemplating suicide during the darkest days of his mental health struggles, despite having achieved success.
The Detroit MC has always been transparent about his mental health, but during a recent interview on Michael Eric Dyson’s One Question One Mike show, he detailed his thoughts of taking his own life, coming dangerously close to ending his bout with depression for good. He said that while artists can use music to convey their feelings, sometimes it takes more than that.
“People don’t get an opportunity where we from. So, it’s like, that was my mentality…was taking care of everybody else. And trying not to look soft, you know? Or look like a bitch. You know how people tell you…those are the stigmas that’s been placed on us growing up. You know, if you’re a man and you’re not working hard, it’s like, ‘Aw, you getting soft.’ So that was always in the back of my head. I’m working, exhausting myself for years and years, and I couldn’t get through the day without feeling terrible. I was for sure contemplating suicide a lot of times. You know, having guns in my hands and really just feeling it for real.”
Also, during the episode, which will air Wednesday on Facebook Watch, Sean explained that he had to identify the root of his depression even after thinking through how his family would benefit from his death financially.
“Not even trying to be dramatic, but definitely was just…even planning it out to the point where like, ‘Hey, if I do kill myself, at least my family will get this amount of money,” he told Michael Eric Dyson. “I done did this already. All these things, right? So…because I just was stressed out and not happy.” The “My Last” rapper said that he felt he would “self-destruct” if he did not get a handle on his mental health.
We’re glad to see that Big Sean is seemingly on the right path to a happy and healthy life.