Demi Moore bares it all with her new memoir ’Inside Out,’ which takes a look into her troubling childhood.
The actress appeared on Good Morning America Monday, where she opened up about being raped when she was 15-years-old.
Moore, 56, told host, Diane Sawyer, that her rapist said to her, “How does it feel to be whored by your mother for $500?”
But when asked if she thought her mother sold her, Moore said, “no.”
“In my deep heart, I don’t think it was a straightforward transaction,” Moore explained. “But she still did give him the access and put me in harm’s way.”
During the interview, Moore also talked about her childhood and how she grew up, explaining that both of her parents battled alcoholism and raised her in an environment filled with infidelities and loud fights.
She learned later that the man she loved and knew as her father was not her biological father. “I made up about that, that I wasn’t wanted or that I don’t deserve to be here,” she explained.
After he left, Moore was then responsible for her mother’s well-being, which proved to be a challenge she detailed in her book.
She was only 12 when her mother first attempted suicide and recalled in her memoir, using her fingers to dig the pills her mother had swallowed out of her mouth. But this was just one of “many, many times” she’d stop her mother from potential death by suicide, according to People Magazine.
“[My childhood] was done,” Moore said. “[It was a] life-changing moment.”
As a child, Moore was uprooted from her home 30 times. Her stepfather, Danny Guynes, died by suicide in 1980, and Moore later reconciled with her mother in 1998 before she passed.
During her acceptance speech as a woman of the year at the Peggy Albrecht Friendly House’s 29th Annual Awards Luncheon on October 2018, Moore spoke about her struggles.
“I feel like there are defining moments in our lives that shape who we are and the direction we go, and early in my career, I was spiraling down a path of real self-destruction, and no matter what successes I had, I just never felt good enough,” she said according to People.
“I had absolutely no value for myself,” Moore went on. “And this self-destructive path, it very quickly … brought me to a real crisis point. And it wasn’t clear at the time the reason — maybe it was divine intervention — but two people who I barely knew stepped up and took a stand for me, and they presented me with an opportunity.”
“In fact, it was more like an ultimatum … unless I was dead, that I better show up,” she shared. “They gave me a chance to redirect the course of my life before I destroyed everything. Clearly, they saw more of me than I saw of myself. And I’m so grateful because without that opportunity, without their belief in me, I wouldn’t be standing here today.”
Her memoir, Inside Out is available Tuesday, September 24, 2019.