“I’m not living my life for Instagram, Facebook, I’m living my life for my family, my kids, and God,” Evelyn Lozada said of her spiritual journey.
On Monday, Evelyn Lozada shared photos of her baptism, highlighting her journey to stay true to who she is and what truly feeds her soul. In a brief interview with Baller Alert, the reality star opened up about her decision to re-dedicate her life to Christ through the religious rite saying it “stems from me feeling like my way wasn’t the right way.”
“Something was missing, it was on my heart, it was on my mind [to get Baptized],” Lozada continued, adding that she was at a time in her life that she just wanted “different results.”
“My soul needed something positive,” she said.
However, this isn’t the first time Lozada embarked on a spiritual journey. In 2013, Lozada dedicated her life to Christ after her marriage to former NFL superstar, Chad Johnson, ended in a domestic violence incident. At that time, Lozada turned to life coach, Tony Gaskins Jr., who encouraged her to get baptized in an attempt to start over.
Now, just nine years later, after a tumultuous season on “Basketball Wives,” Lozada has, once again, devoted her life to God, and this time, she’s serious about it. In fact, she’s even made a slew of lifestyle changes to reflect her new faith and journey.
“I’m done with premarital sex,” Lozada said, adding that she would like to remain celibate until marriage. She also explained how certain interactions and relationships drained her soul and spirit. “I felt like… [in] those relationships I lost a piece of me, every time I had sex [out of wedlock],” she said, adding that it’s not hard to do, since she abstained from sex for a year post-breakup from Carl Crawford.
“Whether they’re interested in me or not with what my journey is, if they’re not with it then I feel like it kinda clears out the BS, so that’s what I want for my life,” Lozada said.
Lozada’s new journey comes on the heels of Kanye West’s recent devotion to Christ, and while many people have condemned the rapper over his rants and outbursts, the reality star said she feels him on a spiritual level.
“You know it’s so crazy,” she said, as she explained that she never knew of Kanye West outside of his sneaker brand and his music. Upon embarking on her own journey, Lozada connected with West’s words. “I think people that don’t understand, say ‘Oh Kanye’s so crazy,’” but, “he makes a lot of sense,” she said. “I’m proud of him and the journey that he’s on. It inspired me; I’m excited for him. I’m rooting for him from the side.”
And although she won’t follow in West’s footsteps to start a church, her journey doesn’t end with her own salvation.
“I feel like I want to be able to be an example,” Lozada said. “I want to be able to speak to young girls from where I came from. I want to be able to inspire other people to, especially young girls, young women, to be able to just really love themselves and really honor themselves. You know your body is a temple,” she said, adding that she recently informed someone that, “Jesus didn’t die on the cross for us to be side chicks.”
“It takes time to get there mentally,” Lozada explained. “I’m not saying I’m perfect because trust me; I’m not. I’m still working on cursing and stuff like that, which has been a way of life for many years. But you know, just really wanting to inspire the youth and young girls.”
As the interview continued, Lozada also opened up about her time basketball Wives,” and how this season erupted in a blow-up about colorism.
“There’s things that happen on Basketball Wives that obviously, I’m only in control of myself and how I respond to somebody saying certain things to me,” Lozada said. “I’m going to keep it all the way one hundred when I was in Miami; I didn’t care. I did crazy stuff, I said crazy things, and I moved on with my life, and I didn’t have a conscience about it. But even with filming last season, you walk away, and I process things. I think about things, and I’m like ‘oh my gosh, maybe that wasn’t the right way to handle that situation.’ Or ‘What is my daughter going to think when she sees this.’ I always know that I need to do better.
“Even though I know this, when you’re in those situations, it’s really, really difficult,” she continued. “Because you never know what is going to happen. Even coming back to the show, I wanted to always do better. I always come in every season like, ‘I’m cool,’ because even at the end of the day, I don’t have to have one argument, and I’ll still stay on ‘Basketball Wives.’ I feel like you have those OG cast members (the old crew) that have paid their dues to be able to do that, but at the same time, it’s difficult because we’re dealing with six months, filming. Every day there’s something going on,” she said.
“As a woman, a mother, somebody that’s trying to accomplish things at life, I know I have to do better with how I respond to certain situations,” Lozada said. “This season whenever we start filming, whenever that is, it’s supposed to be at the top of the year. It’s going to be the real true facts because me getting baptized and really wanting to do it for God in the right way, it’s going to be not easy. But I’m determined to pass the test.”
While on this new journey, Lozada is aware that she’ll have a slew of naysayers who doubt the authenticity of her journey. But, she says, “People are going to have an opinion on your life,” adding that she wouldn’t be where she is in life if she was ever worried about the naysayers.
“Everyone’s going to have an opinion and say negative things, and that’s fine,” Lozada said. “I just feel like all I can do is really just do the best I can and stay focused on what I’m trying to accomplish and do with my life.”
“No matter what we do, somebody’s going to have an opinion,” Lozada added. “I’m not living my life for Instagram, Facebook, I’m living my life for my family, my kids, and God and the few friends that I genuinely have, and that’s just really it.”
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This journey though personal is also about staying true to who I am, who HE is and what truly feeds my soul ❤️??