Justin Bieber is speaking out about his past drug use, and he revealed a time that his bodyguards had to come into his room to check to see if he was still alive.
In the May issue of GQ, the singer discussed his past problems, telling the magazine that despite his enormous popularity, he felt empty.
Bieber said there was a sense of still yearning for more. “It was like I had all this success, and it was still like: I’m still sad, and I’m still in pain. And I still have these unresolved issues.” He continued, “And I thought all the success was going to make everything good. And so for me, the drugs were a numbing agent to just continue to get through.”
Bieber said he “lost control” of his career vision, which was clouded by the views of those in the industry around him. Some people, according to the artist, “prey” on other people’s insecurities for personal benefit.
“And then you’re this young angry person who had these big dreams, and then the world just jades you and makes you into this person that you don’t want to be,” Bieber said. “And then you wake up one day, and your relationships are f*cked up, and you’re unhappy, and you have all this success in the world, but you’re just like: ‘Well, what is this worth if I’m still feeling empty inside?'”
Bieber said in his YouTube series, “People don’t know how serious it got. It was legit crazy scary.” He added, “I was waking up in the morning, and the first thing I was doing is popping pills and smoking a blunt and starting my day.”
In an interview with GQ, he said that his faith and his wife, Hailey Bieber, helped him get through these difficult times.
Bieber said, “I came to a place where I just was like: ‘God, if you’re real, I need you to help me because I can’t do this on my own. Like, I’m struggling so hard. Every decision I make is out of my own selfish ego.”
In 2018, when Justin and Hailey got married, he said the first year of their marriage was “really tough,” Bieber credits his wife with helping him to have something “to look forward to” in his life.
Bieber said they were “creating these moments for us as a couple, as a family, that we’re building these memories.”
“And it’s beautiful that we have that to look forward to,” he said. “Before, I didn’t have that to look forward to in my life. My home life was unstable. I didn’t have a significant other. I didn’t have someone to love. I didn’t have someone to pour into.”