Lady Gaga recently appeared on CBS “Sunday Morning,” where she discussed her suicidal state following her rise to fame.
“I hated being famous. I hated being a star,” she said. “I felt exhausted and used up. I didn’t really understand why I should live other than to be there for my family,” Lady Gaga confessed. “That was an actual real thought and feeling: Why should I stick around?”
The 34-year-old “Judas” star said that the instant success was too much to handle, as it left her unable to make a grocery store run or a dinner with loved ones without being chased down by eager fans. This contributed to her declining mental health, which led to daily thoughts of taking her own life.
She also recalled even resenting the piano that she’s owned and mastered over the years, which contributed greatly to her fame.
“You ruined my life. … You made me Lady Gaga. My biggest enemy is Lady Gaga,” she said of her piano.
The Grammy winner explained how challenging it was to reveal to others that she was struggling with her mental health issues.
“It’s not always easy, if you have mental issues, to let other people see. I used to self-harm. I used to say, ‘Look. I cut myself. See, I’m hurt,’ because I didn’t think anyone could see because, mental health, it’s invisible.”