Lizzo‘s year of seemingly whirlwind success has been filled with extreme highs and crushing lows.
With a certified Platinum album, eight Grammy nominations, a role in this year’s hit “Hustlers” and more under her belt on the horizon, including being named Time and Entertainment Weekly’s “Entertainer of the Year,” there’s no denying Lizzo has had one heck of a year.
But she’s also faced heavy criticism and backlash (especially this week after showing her entire behind at the Staples Center). In an interview with Time, Lizzo revealed that she still suffers from insecurities, like most people.
“From March to … now! I was experiencing a little bit of unhappiness. I was not happy with the way I felt to my body,” Lizzo, 31, told the publication.
“I didn’t feel sexy, and I didn’t know when it was going to end,” the singer said. “There were times when I would go on stage and be like, ‘Y’all, I’m not going to lie. I’m not feeling myself.’ Sometimes I’d break down and cry.”
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Even as her third album “Cuz I love You” has just garnered her the most Grammy nominations of any other artist this year, Lizzo confessed that sometimes she does have to censor herself amid negative criticisms. “I have to bite my tongue on certain things,” she said. “When people challenge my talent, they challenge whether I deserve to be here. They challenge my blackness. I’m like, ‘Oh! I can easily just let your ass know right now in 132 characters why you’re f-cking wrong.’”
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Lizzo’s success is also based on her ability to be so relatable, and that’s why she is so candid about every part of her experience with fame, including revealing that she is trying all sorts of approaches to dealing with the newfound pressures of it.
As she told Time, “I didn’t want to be famous,” she said. “I wanted to be like Brandon Boyd from Incubus! I just want to go to the farmers’ market.”
