Meghan Markle, the Duchess of Sussex, has opened up about the “unbearable grief” she experiences after suffering a miscarriage.
Meghan wrote about the heartbreaking experience in a piece for the New York Times. The Duchess revealed that she and her husband Harry lost their unborn baby this past July while living in Los Angeles.
In the touching article entitled “Losses We Share,” Markle describes how she was looking after her son Archie when she felt a sharp pain that almost crippled her.
“I dropped to the floor with him in my arms, humming a lullaby to keep us both calm, the cheerful tune a stark contrast to my sense that something was not right. I knew as I clutched my firstborn child that I was losing my second,” she wrote.
The former “Suits” actress and member of Britain’s royal family described the difficulty of losing a pregnancy and reflected on the past year’s hardships in the extremely personal piece.
“I lay in a hospital bed, holding my husband’s hand. I felt the clamminess of his palm and kissed his knuckles, wet from both our tears. Staring at the cold white walls, my eyes glazed over. I tried to imagine how we’d heal,” she wrote.
The 39-year-old also spoke candidly about keeping a “brave face” in public even after the heartbreak.
Markle decided to write the article to bring more attention to the topic of miscarriages, which she says remain “taboo, riddled with (unwarranted shame)” that “perpetuates a cycle of solitary mourning.”
“Losing a child means carrying an almost unbearable grief, experienced by many but talked about by few,” she shared.
“In the pain of our loss, my husband and I discovered that in a room of 100 women, 10 to 20 of them will have suffered from miscarriage.”
The duchess also reflected on the many trials of 2020, saying that the events of this tumultuous year have brought many “so many of us to our breaking point.” She noted the “loss and pain” of those who have lost loved ones to Covid-19 this year and referred to the wave of Black Lives Matter protests, sparked by racial injustice and the deaths of George Floyd and Breonna Taylor.