Nicki Minaj Speaks About How Her Childhood Trauma Affects Her Parenting: “I’m Afraid That My Son Will Feel That I Left Him”

Nicki Minaj opens up about her childhood trauma and how it affects her parenting.

In a Q&A session for Interview Magazine, Nicki spoke on motherhood alongside Jada Pinkett-Smith. The conversation begins with Jada congratulating Nicki on becoming a mother.

“I love my son so much that I don’t know if it’s normal, but it seems unhealthy because I took too long to start working and leaving him to be watched by anyone, so now I have this real bad separation anxiety. So that’s not good.”

The rapper then mentions that her son will be turning two soon and recalls being the same age when her family abandoned her.

“When I was 2 years old, my parents left me in Trinidad,” she said. “Of course, I was very attached to my mother, and in my little toddler mind, I thought I was going to see her the next day. And she was gone for two years, so that’s a big part in my development.”

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“In fact, right before I came to the States, my mother had to come to Trinidad because I had to have an operation,” she added. “And when I opened my eyes from the operation, I was maybe three years old going on four, I started crying because I didn’t know who this lady was. I was crying at the side of my mother. And I started begging my cousin, who was a teenager, to come be in the room with me. Because that’s who I had gotten attached to in the year-and-a-half prior, you know? So I’m reliving all of those things now because I’m afraid that my son will ever feel that I left him for anything, for any reason, and for any amount of time.”

Elsewhere in the interview, Nicki hinted at possibly releasing an album this year.

“People have gone through so much recently that they want to have fun. It’ll probably expedite the album to come out this year.”