Last week, a Brooklyn woman who jumped to her death from the Vessel in Hudson Yards scheduled her suicide note to auto-post posthumously on Instagram one day after her tragic death.
On December 22, Yocheved Gourarie, 24, rode the subway into Manhattan from her home in Crown Heights and bought a ticket to the popular tourist attraction, the Vessel. According to the Hudson Yards website, the Vessel is described as a spiral staircase made up of 154 interconnected staircases. Gourarie climbed to the highest point of the structure, climbed over the railing, and lept to her death. She was pronounced dead at the scene.
According to The New York Post, her heartbreaking suicide note was posted to her Instagram page the following day.
“This is pretty surreal, isn’t it? One might say uncomfortable. Jarring. Just close the app now if you want. I guess if you don’t know by now, you should probably sit down,” Gourarie began her post. “If you’re reading this, I’m gone. Either that or somehow incapacitated in the hospital, so I can’t delete this scheduled post. I really hope I’m not, though.”
“I don’t care to go into the reasons why I’m gone, but there are certainly more than thirteen. I scheduled a note to send to my parents posthumously; if they choose to share or publish it, you may be privy to more insight,” she continued. “I will leave that choice up to them.”
She assured everyone that there was nothing more they could have done to help and that she was no longer in any pain.
“None of you could have done anything – or done more – to prevent this from happening. You all did your absolute best, and for that, I am eternally grateful. I hope you can find some comfort in knowing I am no longer in pain.”
The posts on her Instagram page chronicle her struggles with mental health issues and anorexia. She divulged that she suffered from anorexia at the age of 12 and had received treatment for the eating disorder at age 17.
In a post to his Instagram account, her father revealed she had spent a couple of months at Center For Change in Utah, a facility “for women struggling with ED.”
“Life will never be the same,” her father, Avremi Gourarie, wrote.
If you or someone you know is considering suicide, you can get help by contacting the Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.