Michelle Williams Opens Up About Battle With Mental Health, Says She Called Off Engagement To Pastor Chad Johnson Prior To Treatment, ”He Didn’t Pray For A Depressed Wife”

Destiny’s Child member Michelle Williams discussed her mental health treatment and calling off her engagement to fiancé Chad Johnson in a recent interview with People Magazine.

Pastor Chad Johnson proposed to Williams in March of this year, 4 months prior to Williams checking herself into a mental health facility for depression. She said, ”I thought I was over depression. I thought, ‘I’m good! I’ve got love, I’m working out…but I was so angry. The rage built up in me. I did not attempt suicide, but I was questioning [life].” She continued, “I would’ve understood [if he left], he’s been praying for a wife. He didn’t pray for a depressed wife.”

Now, the couple is back on track and headed down the aisle soon enough after some individual and premarital counseling. Michelle said, “People fall off the fitness wagon, people fall off the wellness wagon, but I can’t fall off the [therapy] wagon. I have to get healed to live this happy life. It’s not just about marrying Chad. I finally found someone to do life with.”

Michelle also shockingly revealed that her breaking point was the Coachella performance she did alongside her group mates Kelly Rowland and Beyoncé. She recalled rehearsing for hours, every day the entire year prior. She said, “I was burying it, and before you knew it, I was looking up out of the pit like, ‘Oh, my God.’ I’d been there before in that darkness. I was like, ‘No, you better go [to the hospital].’ By the time I got there, I was stable.”

Now that all is well again, the two will document their individual and premarital counseling journey on their upcoming show on OWN  “Chad Loves Michelle” which premieres November 3rd.